I wrote it here, because I know
you will probably see this. Given your nonsensical, childish and moronic
behaviour, I will just say it once just so you will never bother me again.
I don’t know your boyfriend well
alright?! I don’t even freaking know his full name. I don’t know where he
lives. I don’t have his contact number. We are new friends, but completely
platonic. He is a great friend, and I pity him for having to entertain you when
you go berserk blaming any random person for cracks in your relationship. I
believe he deserved someone else better than you, and I will never blame him if
he really leaves you for someone else better.
I have enough issues on my hand,
and I seriously don’t need you to malign me this way. I am sure of myself, and
my conscience is clear. You should be ashamed of yourself for ranting at me
even before you get details of the full picture.
So please, go far away from me.
If the next message I get from you is not an apology then I rather not hear
from you. And if you should try any of such illogical accusation on me again, I
assure you I will not let you have the cheek to walk on the face of earth again.
You can continue blabbering on
about what the definition of friendship is, because true friends will never use
words to define their ties. I am not afraid of you and what your screwed up
mind can do. My friends know me well enough and will never judge me.
Unfortunately, I cannot say the same for you. For someone so irrational and
unfeeling, I doubt you ever have true friends, which probably explains your
craziness now.
Then again I do not really see
the need in explaining to you my friendship with anyone or everyone. Who are
you to me? Do you even know me? I do not need a photo or MSN address to add a
friend on friendster, and I certainly do not need to delete your boyfriend off
my account. I do not freaking need your opinion or your permission in my
affairs. So if you would please, you can continue slandering my friend and I,
because in the end it only goes to show how much an insecure freak you are and
what a chick brain you have.
Have the guts to face me, and stop hiding behind your façade, acting like you are damn
mighty. I am not fearful, because I have done no wrong.
Between boredom and reality..
It is almost a standstill in life. There seems no direction
and my energy is soon depleting. What an awkward way for me to start this New
Year. It had been a really long journey throughout my 25 years of living on
this crazy world.
Sometimes I really want to just break away from it all and
start anew somewhere else. It may seem like an idea I have never considered,
but I guess Melbourne does hold some
of my most wonderful times with people I love. Do not get me wrong, I am going
no where far. However, it may not be too late to start opening new windows to
how my life can be lived.
I fear of uncertainty. Period. Yet as ironic as it sounds, I
must learn to beat my fears and become a person whom I think I can love. Stop
living for others, start doing it for myself. In time to come, I know I will
love myself more.
On a lighter note, my mum is doing better and recovering
from her colon infection. Hopefully, the check ups this week will be positive
and find nothing else more disturbing. My mum told me that I will not have
dinner for tonight. I think it is because my parents are hopeless romantics and
will be celebrating their 30th wedding anniversary alone somewhere
for dinner. If only “new age” relationships can all be as sweet as that, I definitely
hope mine will eventually beat theirs.
"Happy 30th Anniversary Mum & Dad!!"
Recently I have been pondering on which is worse?
"Regret" or "Forget". If you are wondering why I seem to be
nonsensical enough to actually come up with such things, that is because I have
too much time on my hands and do not bother asking me why. So take a pick and
tell me your answer. I am seriously
curious as to what the majority thinks.