Between boredom and reality..

It is almost a standstill in life. There seems no direction
and my energy is soon depleting. What an awkward way for me to start this New
Year. It had been a really long journey throughout my 25 years of living on
this crazy world.

Sometimes I really want to just break away from it all and
start anew somewhere else. It may seem like an idea I have never considered,
but I guess Melbourne does hold some
of my most wonderful times with people I love. Do not get me wrong, I am going
no where far. However, it may not be too late to start opening new windows to
how my life can be lived.

I fear of uncertainty. Period. Yet as ironic as it sounds, I
must learn to beat my fears and become a person whom I think I can love. Stop
living for others, start doing it for myself. In time to come, I know I will
love myself more.

On a lighter note, my mum is doing better and recovering
from her colon infection. Hopefully, the check ups this week will be positive
and find nothing else more disturbing. My mum told me that I will not have
dinner for tonight. I think it is because my parents are hopeless romantics and
will be celebrating their 30^th wedding anniversary alone somewhere
for dinner. If only “new age” relationships can all be as sweet as that, I definitely
hope mine will eventually beat theirs.

"Happy 30th Anniversary Mum & Dad!!"

Recently I have been pondering on which is worse?
"Regret" or "Forget". If you are wondering why I seem to be
nonsensical enough to actually come up with such things, that is because I have
too much time on my hands and do not bother asking me why. So take a pick and
tell me your answer. I am seriously
curious as to what the majority thinks.

 

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