Hello 2008 (I already feel a lot older)

Crash Course on a year of Wileen’s life:

1. My ex-friend/ex-colleague who stole my wallet while at work was finally convicted. However, the sentence was light and he got away with a fine of merely SGD1500 in lieu of 3 weeks jail time. I’m not a stoned hearted person, but I really felt that the fine was not an amount that will etch a lesson in his heart. He still has his life, his job, and his girlfriend (also my ex-colleague who blindly stood by him). While I lost my possessions, a friend, and my trust in yet another person. I don’t know what’s your take on this, whether if it was justice done. I’m still disgusted by the thought of him, and my “friends/colleagues” who seemingly knew but acted along with him in front of me while I still joked and enjoyed working with them around. Evil people walk among us. One word for me – FOOLISH.

2. We lost Jane in 2006, and in 2007, I lost another two friends. Goodbye Alex and KK. I hope the both of you are in a better place now.

3. I think it’s almost official. Miss Dorothy Soo Der Min has gone missing from my life. No smses, no phone calls from her, not even a “hello” on MSN. Don’t ask me why. I had no freaking idea too.  I guess our friendship was just not as valuable to her like it was to me. All those times we spent hanging out together at our usual spot, the late night aimless spins, and the depressing moments we spend sobbing did not amount to anything I suppose. I even had to literally dream of bumping into her. Yeah, I do miss her a lot as a great pal. But I had given up asking her out and I think I’m giving up thinking about how great our friendship had been too.

4. I lost him. I do not remember how I made it pass this year without his usual company. I missed a lot of things about us, but I know all good things come to an end. I should not have believed him when he said he wanted to grow old with me. I think what he really meant was to grow OLDER with me. Saw with my own eyes that perhaps being special did not mean anything to him at all. Maybe I am not the only one categorized as so. He should have known a lot better than to hurt me the same way like that jerk did. Sure, we are still in contact. The friendship is still cool. I’m just not sure how much good it is doing to me. Another word for me – BLINDED.

5. 2007 marked the toughest year for me in terms of job hunting. Let me see: Bain & Mercer, True Yoga, iShop, Standard Chartered Bank and finally my current job. Haha! 5 jobs in half a year’s time. I’m really quite something. Perhaps the only time I’d call myself impressive. A pretty taunting period for me though.

6. Do you like dramas? I do! In fact, I lost count of how many dramas I have watched in 2007. English, Korean, Taiwanese etc. English dramas such as Heroes and Prison break were great! (New seasons come out soon please!!) They had provided me with great entertainment. On the down side, I think I had an overloading of love comedy dramas. All those fairytale-like stories and cute male leads drilled impossible dreams (not obscene) into my head. But but but, such ideals do not exist in our highly realistic world. Note to myself (and JX) – Stop fantasizing!!!!!! Cute and eligible guys are 1. Taken/ Married 2. Not interested in you/me 3. Gay 4. Dead. So freaking sad but true.

7.Quite of number of my friends have been asking why am I still single, and that they do not believe when I said I’m not seeing anyone special. Well, great question. I often ponder on it too. Haha! Sometimes I feel it’s because I did not open my options to other people. Perhaps there were interested parties, but I just did not reciprocate. Hence, I reject invites, I choose not to answer certain leading questions, I became a true blue ninja in this area. Even my boss thinks it’s my problem. He thinks that if I want to, I can definitely date someone, or anyone. He said, I probably had expectations of who I go out with. But everyone has expectations, isn’t it? My expectations aren’t really that HIGH. I just want someone who is tall, dark, handsome, rich, intelligent and humourous (See point 6) – straight and single. Is that really that difficult? Hahahaha!!

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8. I had one of my happiest Valentine’s Day ever! Celebrated it with HZ and my cousin at the Ministry of Sound (MOS). The night was spent with a lot of giggles, cam whoring, drinks and games. However, the best part of the night was not about clubbing. It was the most fun when we were at Seletar Reservoir. Just us, three girls, armed with sparklers, soap bubbles and a mobile phone camera, leaping into the air, waving our lighted sparklers around, attempting to blow out the most bubbles from that single bottle of soap. It was pure joy, in possibly the most childish way, the most forgotten way, which is to spend it with friends.

9. Congratulations to Gek and Beeks!! Both weddings were beautiful and fun, though a tad tiring. I hope you newly weds enjoy an eternity of bliss and good health. Quick! Go start making babies!! Hur hur hur.. Congratulations to Jen and HY as well. Another two of my RCY girls getting married. Now, who wants to join my Spinsters’ club? – Chairperson: Bok. Haha!

10. I finally got settled into my current job after months of job hopping. The company is relatively huge and has offices in Seattle, Hong Kong etc. However, the office in Singapore is really small in terms of manpower. Even though there are not many of us, the environment is rather peaceful, without much politics revolving. Thankfully, my colleagues and I got along well, and my bosses have been nice to me so far. I really have nothing much to complain about.

11. My usual coffee meeting with Xan had somehow evolved into a monthly affair. It began a few months ago as I needed to do some banking at Vivocity, and took the chance to meet up with her. It was pretty much like a routine: banking> dinner> shopping> coffee, and she would then take the very long drive to send both of us home. Never once had she dropped me off the AYE like she threatened, and for that I’m really grateful. Our routine coffee meetings were often short, yet they are always the highlight of any week we arranged to meet in.

12. I’m really glad that I was able to enjoy the company of a couple of good friends. Of course, there is the Evergreen award going to Miss JX. Year 2008 marks the 19th year of our friendship. Fortunately, we have not lost the entertaining trait we have in us. Let us continue entertaining each other with jokes that probably no one else could understand. There is also Miss Sue Ann, my “window” buddy who always brings me around to interesting events, signed me into Zouk and drove me home after clubbing even though she was dead tired.  It was always fun hanging out with these peeps. May there be more good times.

13. I finally had braces! I had to give myself a pat on my shoulders for finally facing up to my fears and realizing a childhood dream. Kudos to me!!

Well, there you go. I have just summarized a year of my life in 13 bullet points. A year of events seemed so short suddenly.

Year 2007 was not fantastic because the depressing moments were more overwhelming than the happy ones. I have come to realize that I am becoming more of an unhappy girl, as I face more times of loneliness. Maybe age does play a part in it, but I would really like to be the Wileen I used to know who would prance around, laugh out loud and be contented with her life. I only wanted to be happy, that’s all.  I wish that year 2008 will bring me a lot more joy than 2007, and I hope the same goes to you too.

"Happy New Year peeps!"

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